I remember back when I was seven, even then the way music
would make me feel. As I would lie in my bed at night it would serenade my
thoughts to were the tune would take them. I remember the cassette player
chording out minor notes and something inside me stirred- it triggered
something almost like an internal sadness that I didn’t know existed till
nighttime. This internal sadness was what kept me up late at night. Listening
to its tune a tune that made me feel how much pain, a word I emotionally had
not yet comprehended, hid deep in my heart. I remember going to my window and
looking up at the stars as the minor music playing in the background in hopes
that I would find the answer. That maybe somewhere in the stars there lied an
answer to this unknown pain that was far beyond what I could imagine. Ironic
isn’t it? That even in the midst of my aloneness the midst of my agony as a
seven-year-old girl I unknowingly automatically turned my face to the universe
to see where I now know lies the creator of the universe. The God that I now
know is the only thing on this earth that can give me freedom from that pain
and agony.
I still can’t believe
I was drawn to the Lord at such a young age. But it’s a reminder that God is
always there- in everything. Even when you cant see him or feel him he is right
by your side. I would encourage you to look back at a time in your life where
you felt like God wasn’t there and ask Him to show you that He was. You will be
surprised to see all the places our God was and is during our most difficult
times just waiting for us to call out His Name.
Psalm 139:1-4
Matthew 28:20
